When I first heard that we had to develop a service platform for the Honors Program, so many different ideas flooded my mind. Maybe that's because there are so many things that I am truly passionate about - most of which have affected me personally. I am already indecisive enough as it is, but adding numerous thoughts and ideas to the mix makes developing a single service platform practically impossible for me. Unfortunately, I am only one person, and I can't possibly fix every problem I encounter, or volunteer with every organization that piques my interest. A tough realization, but one that is oh so true.
I guess this is just one more instance where I have to step back and realize that I can only take things one day at a time. I don't have to have everything planned out right now. I'm still struggling with that one, to be honest. I want to do so much in this lifetime, so I find myself keeping my head in the future and missing out on what is occurring right now.
Maybe I'm trying to accomplish all of these things in order to figure out who I am. As if those things are going to help me figure it out any faster. Instant gratification, if you will.
I have decided that I am going to volunteer where I can, and see where this semester leads me.
To make a long story short (and to keep myself from rambling), I am making a pledge to myself:
-I will try my hardest to live in the present, and not worry about what the future brings.
"Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come." -Proverbs 31:25
-I will not base my own self-worth on what others think of me.
"You are altogether beautiful, my love; there is no flaw in you." -Song of Solomon 4:7
-I will help others at every opportunity.
"This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you." -John 15:12
-I will not doubt my God's love for me.
"Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you." -Psalm 73:25
-I will glorify God in all that I do.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." -Isaiah 41:10
I will find out who I am, one day at a time.
Always, Kalee